In the year 2020, when covid hit the earth and the destined events ensued, I plunged into the deep end of the pool to discovering the meaning of life. I was looking for answers to the many WHY's I had but received zero sensible responses from many people I once knew.
Like why do this, why not do that, what is our purpose, etc. I started to discern spiritual things beyond this physical sphere.
It’s smoothly been roughly 5 years since I started on this walk with the Creator and I have gained perspective and understanding on certain very potent realities that exist as I live.
I thought it would be good to jot down a quick 27-point list of my gleanings that rocked or rolled my world after my catharsis. My list is in no particular order of importance throughout, except the last one is the MOST important.
Stick till the end to find some personal snapshots of my day and a love-note worded very lovingly and thoughtfully by my awesome husband! That is at the very end, if you want to skip the long read, scroll to the end to see it.
Here I go.
1. Life is beyond the here and now. The choices you make are uber important. Don’t slack and take it for granted.
I came to discover that life is all about choices. I have complete control of making the choices involving ME — which means saying yes to what I find right and rejecting what I find wrong or amiss.
I don’t think we understand the importance of choices and the repercussions they hold to the life we lead and the people we become. We take it easy and slack on small stuff and this attitude slides into the important decisions we make and overall we lose touch of who we are and how it got this way.
But I found a way out. And that is to make the best choices I can. To follow a fixed blueprint of morality that helps me know what’s in limits and what’s off.
2. In life, you cannot be on 2 boats. You will be pulled and stretched thin by both sides, leaving you nowhere but drowning in the end.
Choose your side and seize life. Otherwise, you will cease living.
I made my pick. My husband has made his. We chose this life. We chose this path. We are not sorry.
Being stuck in the middle of 2 beliefs is the worst thing you can do to yourself. Not having clarity of the vision of the road ahead can lead to fatality.
Don’t kid yourself or lie to yourself. Even worse, don’t try to please people who are as mortal as you are and who don’t always know better.
3. Life and Death, Good and Bad is all in the Creator's hand.
It’s a simple truth yet tough to grapple with at times. It’s easy to accept that good things come from the Creator. But the bad things we can never attribute to Him lest we start to hate Him.
But we just don’t understand in our limited understanding and perceptions how He can even transform the bad stuff that happens to us to turn out for the good. How the end result is always perfection. Even though we don’t see it and understand it at all because it is so painful. It’s not easy to see it through.
But once you do, you know how He is great and amazing and how you were shortsighted and silly to assume the worst.
4. Don’t be afraid to go the unconventional route when the whole herd is heading swiftly to their own decimation. Make the choice to navigate the steering in a way it stays on track, lest you swerve your way towards destruction.
I cannot emphasize enough how important it is to not sway away from the way. I have come to witness firsthand that the path of truth is really very circumscribed. Many imposters and religions are invented to take me away from the undisputed and only truth, most importantly, my freedom.
Never give up your freedom. Question everything.
5. Don’t make every move to expect a win. Yes, it’s important to win, but sometimes perceived losses are just temporary stepping stones to the big win that’s coming for you.
Losing is subjective. Many moves you make may look like setbacks and losses to the ones on the outside and to your opponents.
But if you stick strong to the path and maintain your strong character, even the worst losses that should’ve taken you out will turn itself around and be a badge of your victory in time to come.
Let your competitors celebrate. They’ll be in for a rude awakening when you are on the peak of the mountain looking down at their shoddy attempt of celebrating too soon and their expressions will be worth capturing!
6. Value the ones inside. Don’t care too much about the ones on the outside. Be human, be fair, but don’t be cataclysmic by petting snakes and expecting to not be stung by their venom. Let the snakes be where they are, in their holes, leaking venom and you stay where you are, in perfect bliss.
It took me a good while to get accustomed to knowing who’s for me and who’s not. Who belongs on the inside to eat at my table and who deserves to be kicked down the staircase.
As harsh as it may sound, I saw how many people were very clear about the insiders and outsiders in their lives. They displayed that through their behavior, prioritizing their close ones and treating as second-class citizens the ones whom they considered outsiders.
When I say insiders and outsiders, I mean:
Insiders — The ones who are truly loyal to you no matter what. The ones who will never speak a word against you in your absence. The ones who know your heart. The ones who stand by you when life is tough. The ones who are always there, in the good times, and most importantly in the bad ones. The ones whose heart is clean and right with you, who love you and wish to see you win, grow and exceed in your life.
Outsiders — The ones who hate your guts. The ones who would want to see you perish completely, forget the wins and the ups. The ones who would annihilate you themselves if they could. The ones who hate your autonomy and free choice. The ones who cannot stand your viewpoints and shudder at the thought of you gaining something valuable that they think ‘could’ve’ been theirs. The ones who will always be on any team that’s opposite you.
As you can read, the insiders are the good guys. The loyal and trustworthy.
On the other hand, the bad guys wish nothing but death for you. But that’s not even the worst part.
What’s worse is that they will FEIGN and PRETEND to be on the inside, wishing the best for you, when in reality, all they want to do is gather your weaknesses and keep you confused if they’re for you or not. Whereas they are clear about their intentions all along.
My husband Joel and I take an unwavering stand on this one by keeping the ones inside close and the ones outside far from us, never to see them again. And that's our choice and it’s serving us pretty well rather than some half-hearted fake show to put on smiles and hugs while your heart is to compete and kill.
Hypocrisy is what we detest.
You’ll be called "evil" and "selfish" for drawing the boundary lines up and clear, but who cares? You’ll be dead if you don’t.
7. Money is a great tool, but value wisdom and understanding over everything. It doesn’t come with a price tag; but I can tell you it's priceless.
I used to be a materialist and I still like to have things that make my life easier but time and again I try to keep myself in check so that my life does not become about these things. In the pursuit of wisdom, freedom, truth and contentment is the way of life.
8. Make the best choice you can at any given point. The outcome if it’s the right choice is not up to you. You’re responsible to make the best choice you can, not the right one.
It’s tough to make decisions. Especially when we are overwhelmed to make the right one.
“I am to make the best choice I can, not the right one. I’ll never know the outcome of every choice. But I can rest knowing I chose the best choice I could and leave the rest to the Creator to decide the end.”
This makes the process of making choices easier and cuts out the anxiety and stress.
9. Know your value, weigh what you bring to the table with an honest estimation, and don’t ever settle for anything below that.
Be honest about your worth and the skills you possess. Don’t settle for just about anything that’s thrown your way.
The people who have made it big did not get there by licking every sole of every shoe to be where they are now.
You have to know your worth. No one will tell it to you. There’ll be plenty to demotivate you and undervalue you. But no one will push you up.
Know how valuable an asset you are and reject anything and everything how many ever times to not accept that false truth being projected onto you.
The naysayers will speak a lot of high and mighty things trying to speak defeat and a contrary truth into your mind.
Silence them with the truth.
10. Don't be afraid to make mistakes along the course. Stay away from those who criticize or belittle your journey.
Just because you are born into a certain belief system and brainwashed with it all your life, don't be afraid to chart out your own quest of seeking the truth, because you only have this life, as you know it.
Mistakes are commonplace. But the journey must go on.
Throw away the ones whose voices and comments make it tougher. The ones who talk about the pinnacle but are afraid of heights.
11. In all certainty, pledging to speak the truth, life is not just physical. Believe in magic and the supernatural.
Life’s a metaphysical bubble of influence. It’s at it’s very least, sumptuously magical.
It’s your soul mission to tap into the magic of this plasticine bubble of good energy, restructure and rectify the fragile chinks in it & never let the positivity pop away into bitterness.
Encumber the pop, positivity to the top.
The Creator wants us to embody magic & glean momentous mementos in every curvature of this bubble of life.
Keep it simple, honest and high on integrity, that’s the most exquisite form of pure sublime magic.
Never letting the bubble pop and ascending through the realms into a higher spiritual state, defying gravity and gravitating crabish folk.
12. Cherish the happy times. They last as long as the rainbow in the sky after a good shower. Live every moment of it unapologetically and unabashedly, look, the rainbow’s already fading…
As you live life, there will be many good times. But many bad ones arrive to cloud your joy.
So, when you have a good time, don’t stop for no one and don’t feel guilty or sorry for being grateful and enjoying your blessings. It’s the portion of your cup. It's been given you. It's yours. Enjoy it to the fullest.
13. The bad times last longer. Or at least it feeeeeels longer because we don’t have tolerance for discomfort and unfamiliarity. Don’t sulk, don’t grumble, it’s showing blatant disrespect and ingratitude to the Creator who shows you some pretty awesome rainbows too.
The bad times often cause us to fret, grumble and murmur words of entitlement.
It must not be so.
Grumbling and complaining accomplishes nothing. And yet falling prey to this attitude is something we all are susceptible to.
Go through your allotted battles valiantly and it will make you stronger, undefeatable.
14. Use your time wisely. Don’t procrastinate. It takes just 20 minutes or less to get done with washing all of the utensils.
Laziness can creep its way in. Succumbing to endless scroll sessions on devices to the extent that one can laze around putting off work that needs to be taken care of to maintain order.
I am going to get on top of this. I will constantly push myself and I know that showing up daily and doing the same things will soon settle and become second nature and a habit that’s here to stay.
15. Take your time to discover what you’re good at. What you’re world class at. What sets you apart from the rest. What you can do with your eyes shut and still win by a margin. And then work to improve and get better at that.
Don’t cheat yourself short of the process. You’re living this life for the first time. It’s okay to go slow and to know yourself and find yourself. Show up everyday and see where you can contribute best to the rest of your fellow humans and do that.
If you won’t excel at something and be happy, it won’t matter if there’s boatloads of cash on that path, it will never fulfill.
Try to be a worthy asset wherever you choose to contribute and to the ones who feel stuck at their work, try to make your existing roles more exciting and try to bring life into that. Constantly seek to improve your surroundings and circumstances and satisfaction will follow.
Keep building on your skills. Grow your talents. Expand your horizons. Widen your reach. Don’t stagnate. Do well for yourself, you just have this life. Work to make it shine.
Take this encouragement and search for ways to make your life better. Do anything that will bring you contentment — be it finding yourself a partner, getting married, starting a new venture, learning a new hobby.
There is no concept of ‘retirement’ except in modern day jobs and corporations. You don’t need to reach an age and then press the brakes.
You can go on and on until you can and that doesn’t have to mean work. It can mean anything you want it to mean.
Invest in yourself. Stay committed to growing.
16. Hard work is subjective. Most people work very hard and yet are the lowest in the pyramid, that is unfortunate. But you do your best and don’t sweat it. Sometimes it’s okay to take it easy.
Life is tough for us in this era of technological boom. It was tough in the ancient days, and it’s tough now.
Put in your best work in the hours of your work schedule and then switch off to the important elements of your life — nurturing your family, nurturing yourself. It’s necessary for a good and healthy life and mindset.
We call it the "work-love balance" and our fun video visuals rendering for it can be viewed — here <
17. Don’t indulge someone petty and vindictive by engaging in trivial battles or conversations. Cut them off.
In life, as you scroll through your days, winning, facing setbacks, there will always be vengeful and envious foes circling around you, seeking a response to get to you.
These leeches will not contribute to any of your upwards achievements and victories and will act like they never happened and willfully brush it off as non existent.
Throw them all away. Cut them all loose. Not worth it. Don’t engage with such vampiric entities.
18. If you don’t believe in something, don’t hesitate for a moment to take a stand against it. Boldly and unapologetically. You have your free will. Use it wisely.
In life, there will be many times when you feel tempted to cheat yourself of your personal charter and values. Where you’ll feel compelled to compromise or else there’ll be no other way…Many will take it upon themselves to get you to submit and fall behind the very things you don't want to, out of your own free choice.
But bowing down in the face of an oppressive megalomaniacal tyrant or a controlling narcissistic entity is never the answer. Most times they will act victimized like you did them wrong by choosing to take a stance contrary to theirs.
When we left catholicism as we were born into it, the reason was that it screamed ONE BIG CONFUSION CRAFTED to take into captivity the regular masses and their gullibility of not knowing any better and accepting the dogma they were fed since childhood. It shouted a money-hogging machinery that looked to benefit itself on the grounds of capitalizing on emotions like 'guilt' and mint money better than the best note-minting factory.
This "pulpit of pedophilia" calls you to be an "altar-server" and then molests you and upon raising your voice as an innocent young lad neutralizes the matter by cutting shady deals with your household.
All these things we could not ignore, and we had to take a stance to step aside from this 'faith' we were born into, because it just did not make any sense and we did not want to sunbathe in something that's nonsensical. It was just our personal choice after what we read and personally saw in these institutions.
Boldly and firmly stepping away is what we chose to do.
Making our stance clear as to why we would not have any part with the corrupt portion of the church, and the church altogether, alongside any other religious institution, to not be joined to their destruction - because to all wickedness there is an end. Brutality, corruption, murder, rapes, pedophilia, lies, deceit, thievery under the guise of righteousness will be condemned by the ones who can see past this lying and stealing machinery and all we can do is speak our truth and not contribute a penny more to the money plates of beads and baubles.
We stand non-religious in our views because every religion is only a means to profit, deceive and indoctrinate the gullible.
19. Sometimes you don’t need 4 lemons, but you need to squeeze a single lemon properly. Make the most out of this concept called "Singularity".
Unanimous one-mindedness fluently hovers a long way. It’s the artifice of joining forces, singularity in vision, singularity in ethos, singularity in believing in the singular Supreme that no self-promoting / proclaiming religion able to decipher.
When many minds ink a singular page, magical mayhem is conceived, a creative & chaotic revolution.
A bespoke ethos in your clan. Singularity.
20. I reckon that the truth is sharper when my words are blunt. The truth is preeminent, nothing comes a close second.
I speak the sharp and cutting truth, as does my husband, because we would rather have it that someone would’ve told it to us, and it would’ve saved us so much of our time and money and the showing up every Sunday as gullible kids.
I’m not buying anyone trying to sell me on some fictitious fables of lunacy. I know the truth and I know where I stand. I'm long gone away from my old traditions that I was born into; I’m never coming back.
Don't lie yourself to sleep just because you couldn't muster the courage to step up for yourself to build the kind of life you have emplaced in the dreams of your head.
Go out, be courageous, gritty and question everything. Much needed change will only broaden your range.
21. Throw away the garb, unapologetically.
Garb is our household slang for anything we consider garbage.
At the beginning of covid, we went on a garb hunt in our house to look for harmful toxic substances that were making their way into our bodies stealthily.
We threw out so many things that could potentially harm us and were not necessarily the best choices to consume or have anything to do with. From toothpaste to instant noodles, we threw out so many illicit substances and now we can safely say we are mindful about most things, little or major.
Goes without saying, we're humans, 21st century humans, so obviously we have our days of lackadaisical choicemaking.
But make a conscious choice to choose the best for you, in everything.
22. You cannot lose something that’s meant for you. What has to come your way will make its way to you, regardless of the blockages.
In life, it’s normal to win some and lose some.
Everyone’s great at winning. But in the course of losing, we tend to become bitter. But I came to find that what’s meant for me will make its way to me in ways mysterious. What’s meant to leave, will grow wings and fly away if it’s meant to be that way.
This gives me assurance and surety that I can never lose out on something that had to be mine, and I cannot control what’s not to be with me.
It eases my anxiety and makes me less stressed about making choices and decisions.
23. Do not envy what someone else has. You don’t know a thing about their journey. Let them enjoy their wins and victories, you wait for what’s yours. Don’t covet, be jealous or be in want. Desire can kill. Wait for your turn, you have plenty to be grateful for.
There is a common thing among men. The prosperity of another causes a fire of envy and jealousy in the chest of another.
It’s like when you win, you’ve wronged someone else by taking it away from them. Like it could’ve been theirs but now you took it and so it’s yours.
It’s a faulty mindset and it’s a petty thought.
Absolute trust in God is when we accept the goods and the bads from the Creator's hand with acceptance and not look at what does not belong to us.
If your neighbor has a sports car, and you like it, you can definitely be motivated to go get the car for yourself by working hard. But lustfully just coveting what belongs to him and have what’s his for yourself is coveting.
24. The tags and labels don’t become true if they’re hurled at you repeatedly non-stop by unreliable witnesses.
As I navigated my life to adapt to my new beliefs, there were a bunch of entities that came about trying to spew their venom of lies, weaving their webs of deceit, afraid of the power leaving their loosening grips. They slandered me mercilessly, called me "evil" and "unsound" and a lot of other tags they invented out of their pocket of myths and fables; made me to be something I was not and threw muck at my image by saying contrary things to the truth of what I was actually doing.
I believe every individual lives once. And they owe it to themselves to discover the truth firsthand and experience life on their own. Taking shade in the already grown banyan trees of their ancestry is good if they have the right beliefs which are grounded in truth, but if not, if things are not seeming right, an individual owes it to themselves to get out and see what’s the truth and get answers.
If I have to hang on this bogus curtain of superficiality and pretentious behaviors and tear it down on my way to the Truth, to expose its true wickedness, covert aggression and narcissistic abuse, then I'll do that with a little bit of a laughter.
It does not matter if others agree to what you believe or have come to find. If they don’t, they can continue to do their thing, and you do yours. Don’t settle under the pretext of guilt and tradition to live a life that’s paralyzing to you.
If everyone is walking each other home to death and destruction, you can choose to walk alone on a path of freedom and truth, whose end is rivers and streams of life.
Always choose you. You have your own free will. Don't be sorry.
25. Creatively Destroy!
The set toxic thought patterns you’ve been ingrained with since birth, channel that energy in superseding grotesque gravity alchemizing a negative experience / trauma into a masterpiece you can smile at, and gloat about, content and free of any iota of regret.
Creation and Destruction are your left and right arm, sometimes you need to decimate & bulldoze a frizzled, fruitless & mouldy building with one arm to build your own pristine premises with an other arm.
Infused with mercurial, strong, impenetrable & wise chambers of wisdom & neo-thought.
You must destroy the obstinate hackneyed system, proliferate your own pursuits of creating.
26. Above all, honor the Creator and choose integrity in ALL that you do, or don’t do.
Live life with a basic moral code governed by your conscience and don't be swayed to take the quickest way out of a matter.
Read the entire contract before jumping into a deal and reject any terms that are contrary to your autonomy and independence.
In this game, there are rules.
27. Autonomously Apostate to Autonomous AposGreat! The path to be paved… A progressional wave!
By the process of elimination is the process of nomination / selection.
The peculiar paradox of learning & unlearning.
Like the whiskers of a cat, one compliments the other.
Like rays to the sun, they radiate in a juxtaposition, beams of wisdom.
And that brings my list to an end.
I am fully aware of the fact that the letter does sound brutal and harsh in some areas — but that is the nature of truth — it cuts, it stings, it pains, but it’s what it is — No pretentiousness, no sugar-coating. Just the plain, simple truth as it is.
To live in a lie, as though it were truth, is like a gullible attempt at driving in darkness, at high octane speeds, expecting to not ram into a pole or a tree of the very false doctrine thudding down on to your very car.
Your car is your mind, drive with your headlights on, through the darkness and navigate with precision!
Here are some photos to mark this day in the photographic journal of my life. Enjoy the slideshow of memories by swiping right on the black arrow as you go!
And here is the poem written by the very charming, very talented, very awesomely gifted man — Joel Wordsmith, whom I am so happy to have as my husband, my crusading partner through life.
Birthday note
// poetry
Like a love note
An endearing ease to my throat
A woman of poise and endurance
A beauteous pioneer to the Wordsmith cohort.
Like a patient lover
A chef with magical hands
So many delicacies plated,
A dazzling smile that has fans.
A meticulous eye
Like the needle to the thread
This great finesse at everything she does
Is definitely not limited to bread!
A talent house for a wife
My partner-in-crime
A no-brainer to be with her for life
Seizing many Forts in time.
Happiest 27 Birthday to my pretty woman!
Cheers, to building a family together and never giving up!
🎂 🎉 🎉 ❤🥰
